Restless SOul

Exactly 79 hOurs and 25 minutes have passed after I finished taking the last paper Of my 7th sem exam . I thOught it wOuld be a very nice time as there wOuld be nO exams , nO last minute mugging and cramming , which kept me very busy last week . But alas ! there is nO such feeling right nOw .
After the exams , life is nOt same again . I have tried many gimmicks tO get myself Occupied , but each has turned futile . Suddenly , facebOOk turned bOring . Even I checked my Orkut accOunt after a mOnth . ThOugh dc main chat prOvided a brief respite , it also cOuld nOt hOld the fOrte fOr lOng enOugh . Last winter tOO I was in Bit . Despite , there were Only 6 boys in my hOstel then ,life was nOt sO boring .
It is not first time my exam are finished .It is nOt that I have nOthing tO dO. Perhaps , this mOnth is mOst impOrtant mOnth Of my life . I have tO appear fOr CAT , then JMET . Then there are sundry cOmpanies cOming fOr placement .These 2O days will play a decisive rOle in my life . They can very much shape my entire life . But it is bizzare that I am feeling the lack Of mOtivatiOn most at this critical juncture . It is like I can nOt cOncentrate On anything , Leave study . SOme eerie thOghts are preOccupying my mind . Am I being restless , Or is it mOral turpitude , Or my bOdy is reacting tO variOus quandaries I have ? I do not know . But I want tO know . Have any Of yOu have experienced such thing . DO yOu knOw the answer . If yes please comment .
Ps happy vaccatiOn and thOse sitting fOr placement , all the best .

Reticence : Evil or Good

Of late I have seen and read much on the importance of expression . Express yourself has been the Tag line of Airtel , one of the leading telecommunication company . But is it necessary to express ? I beg to differ . Everyday , we meet almost a fixed number of people . We exchange pleasantries ,the formal hi , hello , bye etc . We say good morning , shake hand and many other things . Words like all the best , congrats have become part and parcel of modern lingua . These are uttered , even when we mean otherwise , although it is not the case always . Many time congratulatory messages are said with well intended meaning . Some of us tend to feel offended , if they are not wished say for example on birthdays .
Let us not go into debate that it is right or not . Every individual has his own thinking . I just want to present my case here . I am not the kind of individual who believe in such kind of ritual . Of course , I also want that my friends , well wishers always succeed in their venture . I , too feel delighted when they achieve something . Only thing is I am reticent . I believe that if they know me well enough ,they wont' mind it . And , If because of my reticence somebody has been offended , I am really sorry . So , next time if you are venturing to achieve something , remember there is one who is always wishing you the best .
PS aal izz weel.

Happy HOlidays

Hi ! It is time of fest and festivities . Eid has gone by and Dussehra is knocking . So , just I was thinking about the Different kind of Gods , and need of multiple God .The denouement was pretty interesting . Each God has HIs own specialities and qualities like us human . And we can idolioze any God we like . Let take the example of Lord Ganesha . Glutton can always look towards Him . But He is very Intelligent and God of intelligence , too .Similarly , Lord Shiva is the perfect idol for youth who likes a bit to indulge in drinking and smoking . Lord Krishna may be the impeccable example for Romeos , Lord Rama for a normal human being . Thus God have also idiosyncrasies and foibles . So , what are we human ! But what make them God is the fact that they are perfect in at least one qualities . So , We human should also try to perfect at least one art ... Anyway enough
Happy Navratri And Dussehara . Hope Your and Mine Prayer Is herad this Navaratri .. Jai Mata DI.. Happy Vaccations...

Memories Never Die

It was All well planned , approx . one month in advance .We were to leave for Puri , Konark and Bhuvneshwar on 14th of August 2008 . On that fateful day , It was raining cat and dogs since early in the morning .We were to leave the campus at 1400 hours . Two of us have Lab classes (Genetic engg , if i remember ) in second half . We thought The prof would allow us to leave the class @ 1345 . But he was hard nut to crack . He turned a deaf ear to our request . Anyway we left the class , at cost of one attendance . The rain had abated little bit . We collected our luggage and took a ride in auto . But Despite all planning God had some other plans . As soon as the auto reached near Mishra Xerox ( hardly 200 m frm campus ) , Auto came to a halt . When inquired , driver told there was no petrol . Wtf . The nearest Petrol Pump was On Bit Mor . Somehow the driver manged a can and a bike and went to fetch petrol .He returned in half an hour , But it was already 1445 hours . Our journey embarked then and we were blabbering and bantering , unaware of what was waiting for us . About 100 m from Kanta toli , we could see a serpentine queue of vehicles . It was a long traffic jam ! There was no sign of the Jam ending in less than a hour . It was 1530 already and our train was at 1600 hours at Hatiya station . All our hopes of making it to Puri was shattered in one go . Some of us lost our cool and started hurling abuses to the driver in Frustration , as he wasted our time in fetching Petrol . Suddenly one of us came with an idea that we leave this auto , take our luggage and , move out of Jam on foot . We agreed , and waded through all the muddy road , We hired an another auto and left for Hatiya , though It was 1550 already We reached Hatiya station @ 1615 hours . The scheduled Departure time had already passed and the train was From Hatiya itself .
When we entered the station , with dejected spirit , I heard One man talking that the train was Late for 1 hour . I cant' tell how relieved were we . The feeling was simply ineffable ! I never thought I will be so happy because of a train being Late . But the such is life . Anyway Train arrived 90 minutes Late , we boarded the train . But there was another surprise waiting for us . Due to some brilliant enterprising idea of Mr Lalu Pd Yadav each compartment had 9 seats in place of orignal 8 . Thanks to Mr yadav , It tok 30 min , For figuring out our berth .After train started discussion started , some of us played card and so on . But as clock ticked 8'0 clock , hunger striked , but we had nothing to eat . All the Little snacks we had , were finished . It was still 2 long hour before we would reach Rourkela and might have some food .Any way bearing hunger , we reached Rorkela @ 2230 hours . All of us were voracious by now . But as we searched food on the station all we could get was 8 ood puris and 2 plates of what they said was veg biryani ( for 7 person ) . All the food vanished in second , but hunger didn't abated . But what to do . We slept then .
When we got up next morning ( 15 August , 2008 ) , it was 0800 hours already . It was still 2 hour before we reached Puri . After having tea , we started inquiring about rooms . Guess what we couldn't find any . The hotels were either full , Or were beyond scope of our budget or far away from the town . In the end we reached Puri , hired an auto and asked the driver to take us to the beach . After , 30 min of traveling the sea was visible . Ohh ! what a exotic scene was that ! Simply mind blowing ! It recharged us and we wanted to dabble in the sea as early as possible . But alas ! we were still a vagabond with no room .We started room hunting expedition again and reached to hotel Puri . After much persuasion and prodding the receptionist conceded that they have one double room vacant and two would be vacant in evening .So we got the room , put our luggage there , and moved towards the beach .....
If you think , It was end of our nightmare , you are wrong ..The remaining part of this nightmarish yet mind boggling journey in the next post......

The Price Of Success

What is the price of success ? Do anyone appropriately know the Complete answer to this question ? My guess is nobody . But of late I have seen that many of us are willing to pay any price even for trifling gain . Some of us are willing to change yourself . Its true that nothing is permanent and change is inevitable . But believe me something are intrinsic and better left unchanged . If success comes to you by changing your inner self , you will regret it later . One get involved in flattery , unctuousness . But , such success is temporal .The goal that enjoins you is not what you deserve . Changing your inner self is bigger than any success . It will make you proverbial " colored Jackal " who became the king of the forest , but was ultimately doomed to death .
But what is worse , is that you betray someone for petty gain . Betrayal will certainly lead you nowhere . You may escalate new heights by bitching against people who trust you , by being unctuous .But your free fall from that height is imminent . And once it begins , there is no stoppage . You will reach to a very abysmal state . They say hope can lift you up from any situation , but in such cases even hope will ditch you . Even your inner consciousness will curse you . There is no other way around .
All these things I am scribing here because I have seen many people around me have suddenly behaving in a very strange way , in a way I never expected from them . Or may they were like that only , and only demasked now . What ever may be the case , I just believe that success or happiness that comes your way by being yourself is the real one , the rest is only a beautiful illusion . So, please always remember to be yourself .

Kabhi Kisi Ko Mukammal Jehan Nahin Milta....

I really don't know how to begin this blog , but I feel like rambling . In the mundane activity , most of us are running a blind race , towards some unknown goal ,almost without passion and they say " passion is the most important thing in the life ." Where has all the verve dessicated ? Why are we all adjusting ? I ruminated on these queries for a long time , but I was unsatiated .
Many a time , a person gets something that he doesn't want , while another coveting it is left deprived . There is so much disparity . As an old adage goes " nothing is impossible " But Is it really so ? As far as I am concerned it is Bullshit . Despite all his effort , human can't achieve everything he wants , because there is a thing called luck and he can't nullify it. At his best he can only assuage the situation by dint of hard labour .
Or is it the other way out . One takes the thing easily achieved as granted , and always pursue something else . In this pursuit , he is dissatisfied . He is sapped of confidence and feel like crap.
Anyway I still can't figure out , what is the real situation ? I am discombobulated .
I will like to finish with a couplet
" यूँ तो गुजर रहा है हर पल खुसी के साथ ,
फिर भी क्यूँ कोई कमी सी है ज़िन्दगी के साथ "
And , If anyone has answer to this riddle please comment .

Freindship Day ETC

Today is friendship day . One more excuse for partying and raving . Time to reminisce the Good Old Days , to travel down your memory lane and recall the naughty summer afternoon when you sneaked into your neighbor's house with your best friend to get a taste of succulent mango , or many such indelible experiences . It is the day when you can give a call or leave a message to some of your friends who you have not contacted off late due to whatever reason .

But, due to some strange reason I don't believe in celebrating 'days' . For me , a part of each day is friendship day , a part is father's day , a part is mother's day . If you feel like talking to your friend sharing some feelings with them , talk to them at that time man! If you cares about your parent , it reflects in your daily attitude towards them .  That's why in Indian culture there was no place for such mother or father day .  Its' just the concept of the Americans , who live in nuclear family , are disinterested in their parents whole year , and pour their feeling on a single day . 

Also the now-a-days  too many days are being celebrated , for instance after father's and mothr's day there  was  parents' day  last Sunday . Numerous just days are being institutionalised , by strong lobby of cards and gift companies to boost their sale . Hypes are created about such days through media , and Genx in persuit of being hip and updated starts observing these days. 

But , let me clear one thing . I am not a Shiv Sainik or a RSS member or advocate of 'moral police' . If you feel like celebrating , do it and why not . But as far as  I  am concerned  , I need just on day " Be YOURSELF Day "

Indian Politicians : Epitome of Demagoguery

In the recent Controversy over the political brawl in the UP , what has taken the back seat ? The rape victim and the rapist . The state of anarchy in the UP . Nobody is talking about these issues .
Now , Mayawati and Rita Bahuguna Joshi are hogging all the lime light .
After the incendiary remarks made by the UPCC chief ,the arsonists set her home on fire causing her irreperable loss of 'property' . She was booked under some act meant to protect SC / ST . She has vowed to fight the legal battle in the court . What she said about Mayawati was truly a lewid remark . What was more shocking that it was uttered by a woman . But the aftereffect was more culpable .
Firstly , the IPC under which she was booked was inappropriate . What Mrs Joshi said to malign her was not because She is a Dalit , but because she was the CM of the stae . How Mayawati can boast that she is the unanimous leader of all dalit in the state leave alone the whole country ?
Secondly , why the arsonist were given free hand ? Even the CM house is at few metre from Joshi's house and not a single police man reached there . The MLA , whose name is in the FIR , filed by Mrs joshi , was rewarded as Mayawati appointed her as the chief of UP suger Corporation .
Thirdly and most importantly , what right had The DGP to reimburse the rape victim or even a murder victim , when the Police machinery heade by him has failed to curb the violence . The tradition of reimbrusement was stared to help people who were victim of natural calamity . How can a rape victim be reimbursed by paying them any sum of money , leave alone Rs 25 , 000 as the case was . What was guarantey that , esp in hindi heartland , their relative won't take the money as soon as the Dgp's chopper took off .
Lastly , what moral right has Ms mayawati to react so violenly , when she had given same stament about Mr Mulyam singh yadav . here are the two statement it is up to you to decide .

Reacting to disbursement of compensation to rape victims in the state Rita said in Moradabad on July 15

Aaj uttar pradesh ka DGP helicopter se udke gaon gaon jata hai … kehta hai tumhari beti ke saath balatkar hua hai … yeh lo pacchis hazaar rupiya … tumhare bete/beti ke saath hatya ho gayi … yeh lo pacchas hazaar…sattar hazaar ….arrey mein kehti hoon yeh paisa Mayawati ke mooh par maar … aur ussasey bolo ki Mayawati agar tere saath balatkar hua toh mein Rs 1 crore dungi ….

What Maya said in January 2007 during election campaign?

Aaj Muslim Samaj pooch raha hai Mulayam Singh Yadav se…. Mulayam Singh Yadav tumhari beti nahi hai…tunhare bhai, bhateeje, rishtedaar ki to hogi … yadi uska balatkaar ham karwadeti hain… yeh Muslim Samaj kahta hai … Toh…yedi unki balatkar ki qimat two lakh hai to .hum Rs 4 lakh denge….

Mayawati had made these remarks following rape of a Muslim girl in Allahabad in January 2007 in which the then Yadav government had given Rs two lakh compensation.

Thus what is elicited here is , all the politician are demagouge . They only know to evoke people emotion for meagre political gain . Nobody is interested in me or you . Indian politics is going to dogs ..

Pain Is Good....

Pain is indispensable part of human life . It is interwoven in life like anything , but most of us abominate it . But with risk of being termed as masochist I say that pain is as quintessential to life as is happiness .
When was the last time , you remembered God ? Obviously , when you were distressed and dolorous . As grave is our grief , so strong is our invocation and prayer .We even bribe or at least try to bribe God to get respite from pain . We are that much selfish , aren't we ? Once pain is assuaged , our devotion stars fading . Thus pain takes us closer to Him .
When grief strikes , we tend to think outlandish . Let me tell you a real life incident . I met one of my cousin in the last summer vacation . He is a simple carefree guy . When I met him this year , I was pleasantly surprised to know that he has cleared CAT , and was ready to join IIM Lucknow .I was even more awestruck to know the reason behind his decision to appear in CAT . he told me that he fell for a girl from Kolkata . Despite his numerous persuasion , the girl didn't yield . Naturally , he was grievous . In state of grief , instead of resorting to alcohol or other intoxication , he decided to prepare for CAT , so that he could stay at Kolkata , by joining the IIM for persuading the girl some more .
While preparing , his feeling for her ebbed . Though, he couldn't join IIM Kolkata ,he got a seat at the IIM Lucknow . Thus pain has given him a much coveted place at an IIM . So , Pain can give us lot . What needed , is to culvert the anger aroused by pain in right direction . There is an old adage " No pain , No gain " . I just want to add that the more accute is the pain , the more bigger is the gain .

Bizarre Thought In Idyllic Time

It is really very interesting to know that most bizarre of the thoughts occupies our mind when we have nothing to do . Such an idea came to my mind when I watching India being ousted by England in the T20 world cup .
What is common between Indian Cricket Team , Manchester United , Rafel Nadal ? Couldn't find any ? Let me tell you . All were reigning Champion in their respective field , and were unsuccessful in their campaign to defend their title . Man U lost their bid of being the only team to defend the Champions league title ,and lost to Barca which co,pleted hatrick of title this year. Nadal lost to Soderling in one of the Biggest Upset of the recent tennis . He is also out of Wimbeldon because of injury . So it is clear that he will be unable to defend sw19 title too . Similarly , India lost its plot and was out of T20 cup amid talk that all was not well between Dhoni and Sehwag .
But , Politcs is a different ball game . This year has augered well for the incumbent poitical parties .
In India Mr Singh is still king , albiet much stronger than his previous term . In the election of european parliament all the reigning parties have won barrin Labor Party in England . In France , Sarkozy won despite allegation that mrs Carla Brown is pulling the strings behind the scene . same is case with Italian PM mr Burcolini , who despite the allrgation of him being dallaying with an 18 yr old Blonde cme out of flying colors . In Iran Mr Ahmedinijad has regained Power amid controversies . Thus , incumbent survived this year .
But now after another thought just cropped in my mimnd . Arent' these a pretext for Consoling myself after India and BJP lost thir battle in Cricket and politics respectively .

Challenges before Government

The month of MAY saw many important events which will be remembered forever in the annals of History . The culmination of 15th Lok sabha election , dismantling of The LTTE , completion of the
2nd edition of IPL are the few to name .
The victory of UPA in the recently concluded General Election didn't surprised the psephologists , but the margin of victory did . The young India voted for stability . After Such a faith reposed in the Congress led UPA , the government now have an onerous task to gratify the need of the people
. The most important task in fornt of the new regime is to insulate the country from great economic depression and take it on the path of prsperity . It has to create new employment opprtunity for the youths.
The second task is to overhaul the beaurocracy which has been rated one of the inefficient in a recent survey. No matter what walfare scheme the government formulates , it will be worthless
if the rule of red tape isn't ended.Government should implement the recoomendetion of the Second Adminstrative reform committee.
It is also a high time , that Government should try to judicial sytem . Judges are also human and liable to corruption . THe Law should also be brought under servelliance of law . The corruption in judiciary has recently been exopsed by a section of media .
The situation in our nieghbourhood is also very volatile . Sri Lanka has just come out of war . In Nepal , the anti indian feeling is increasing . A spate of attack by pro Taliban terrorists has excarbated already worse situation in Pakistan . So government should deal these matter with a dplomatic prudence .
Youth are restless in nature . They have voted UPA to power . Which has not been accomplished in 60 years should be done in 5 year , otherwise 2014 is not far Mr Singh. Till then your the King....

Ani Ohev Otcha

कितना मैं तुझे याद करता हूँ
खुदा से एक ही फरियाद करता हूँ

तुम्हे भूलने की हो जो कोशिश
तो पूरी नहीं हो मेरी ख्वाहिश

आहों से मेरी निकले ऐसी तपिश
दूर हो मौसम-ऐ-खलिश

उम्मीद है एक दिन ऐसा भी आएगा
जब मैं कौन हूँ ,तू जान जाएगा

Holi , Birthday & a Wish

Hi Folks
Its' night again . I am literally alone in my half of lobby . Thought started travelling in my mind again . Its' not that I am bored . I am enjoying it .Today is Holi - the festival of color . Celebration is on every card . But nothing so special for me . I will be waiting for Gulal . If it comes ok , if it doesn't no problem .
Coincidentally today is my birthday too . Again no special plans . I have enjoyed my birthday party in advance . One more thing . Many people take it otherwise if their friends forget to wish them on their birthday , not me . I know that those who had always have good wishes for me must have some reason for not doing so . One of the reason is I have no medium on which they can wish . They can forget too. But , it doesn't mean they don't care for me any more . So no ill feelings .
As they say , wishes are fulfilled on the birthday .I have a small one too . Many times I get some news which is not related to me directly . If I don't get them , I am fine . But if I receive them , it starts irking my mind , as I have said earlier on this platform . This pain I can't share with anyone . So it hurts even more . So ,please don't break news like that to me .
Finally , A Happy Holi full of all colours of love to you . Celebrate it in right spirit..

Don't Know What To Say

Affinity or natural liking to anything is natural tendency .But when an affinity becomes obssesion , it is very dangerous . And obssesion can make a person do anything . Mind stops thinking when it is obsessed . So a person takes extreme measures in fit of obssesion , without thinking the after effects . What else can explain why a person decides to end his life in a tender age . He can be in some deep sort of problem ,and no ray of hope he can see . But there is solution to every problem as every dark night has a morning . And sucide isn't the solution of any problem . That is for sure . It is escapism . And a man does not escape from situation , he faces it . I know these surmons are easy to give , but believe that they are not so hard to practice . So be a man . If you are in the worst of situation , remember it can't worsen further . And whatever is the problem , there is a solution . as they say " where there is will , there is way ." So please don't loose heart . Before taking any extreme step just think that there are many people like your parents , who has many hopes from you .
and when you will be gone it will leave them shattered . So please don't do the mistakes that can't be undone .

Anyway , these are my thought when I came to know that a student has commmitted suicide in our university campus . May ! his soul rest in peace and God give his family the strength to bear this tragedy.

अलबेला दीवाना

कुछ तो सिला दे मेरे नीर बहाने का ,
एक बार नाम ही ले ले अपने दीवाने का ।
ऐसा करने से तेरा क्या जाएगा ,
पर किसी को सारा जहाँ मिल जाएगा ।
उस एक पल को सदा के लिए कैद कर लूँगा ,
उसी के सहारे मैं सदियों जी लूँगा ।
फिर न रहेगा कोई गिला इस ज़माने से ,
बाज़ आ जाऊंगा खुदा को आजमाने से .
पर अगर ऐसा भी न तू कर पाये ,
और ये इश्क शिर्क न बन जाये
तो फिर इतना ही करम कर दे , (मौला)
मुझे फिर पहले सा कर दे
मुझे फिर पहले सा कर दे ....
शिर्क = खुदा से बैर
कापीराईट :-- माइंड हंटर

FAITH

Faith is such a big word . So many people have laid their life in the name of faith , and many more had decimated others life . Many epoch making events are its consequences . Sometimes life changing occurrences had taken place as result of belief.
But is it worth it? Or is it most outspoken belief . Why it happens that a man gets nothing as a result of belief . A belief in which he believes more than himself . Why does it happen that bad man reap all the rewards ? Is it effect of bad Karma , or He just wanna prove that we are mere puppet in his hand ? These are the mind churning and soul stirring thought which crept to my sub conscious mind when I saw that a laptop and a mobile was just stolen from my friend's room just in matter of 2 hours . He hasn't done any bad to anyone . So , why did the tragedy struck him . And ,if it can happen to him , may be I can be the next victim . Authorities , in stead of offering some sympathy , leave alone any assurance of recovery , were busy in blaming his friends . Which type of divine justice is it? Optimist may say it was result of some bad Karma of previous birth . If it is like that God please kill me so that I can reincarnate and enjoy my next life . Beside it, I have got some information yesterday that has left me completely shattered
. I can't share that information on this platform. But enough is enough. I can't see more suffering. My faith is dwindling in doldrums. May be I am under influence , but God forgive me, and if You can't do anything " Maula mere le le meri jaan."

<< Love >>

What is love ? Why this single subject has been igniting the minds of countless poets, writer, painter, sculptures, to create immortal masterpieces since the evolution of mankind? What is so magical about it that keeps captivating the mind ? These were the questions popping in my mind
as I was sitting n my room alone and was getting bored . Then I tried to find the answers.
We all have experienced love in one way or another be it fatherly love , motherly love and many such kind of love. But which form of love has been the most talked about? Love between a man and woman. What happens when a man loves a woman? I am not fortunate enough to have a taste of this kind of love . So all my knowledge about it is little and abstract. As far as my knowledge is concerned it is like some chemistry between two people which make them feel complete. It becomes so integral for them that they are ready to give and take life for its sake . Many people call it the elixir of life .So what about me? Am I devoid of the elixir. Is my life incomplete? Even if it is like that I can't feel it. may be ,I would have felt it, if I had experienced it. But, on the other hand, iI also know another type of person, those who have burnt their heart in the game of love.They call it is blunder of life . Love has also shattered many.
So, as on next Saturday when whole world will be celebrating 'Festival of Love' the Valentine's Day ,I will be utterly confused about all the euphoria surrounding me .Anyway, for all people out there in love , I will say"Keep enjoying the magic of love ." And for those who are just having an affair just for its sake only " Please get rid of the burden " Life will be more serene and beautiful.
For the heart burnt people "Move away. Free yourself from the captivity of negativity. God has some other beautiful plan for you. "And for the single like me " Keep looking. May! one day you taste the elixir of life." Happy Valentines' Day in advance.
Keep smiling!